I cried and cried thinking that ohh man what iam i going to do now my face was going to stay this way for a while and it was just awful. Then a couple of days went by and it happened to the left side of my face. and i prayed and prayed that it would go away and it did. thank you jesus!  Then a couple of days passed my fingers where getting swollen and like arthritis was in them and my feet. Then i woke up one morning and my whole right are was paralized i couldn't move it at all.... I was so terrified! so I was crying all day and, i called mom up and told her...mom somthing is terribly wrong with me i have to go in i was very weak and couldn't hardly even move. And for some reason my friend Laurie called up and asked me how i was doing and I started crying and telling Laurie i have to go in to the hospital Iam going to die I know  it God wants me to go now and so she came over and brought me up to Wausau to the emergency room up there. I looked terrible and i was getting terrible charlie horse cramps in my elbows like stabbing pains. so we went up there the doctor on call read over my chart that i had trasfered over from marshfield clinic to them. And he walked in and looked at me in amazement because i knew he knew that i should have been dead by now from all the medicine they were giving me and the prednison The (steriod) that they gave to me to take away the rash.. And the steriod brought my amune system down and let the lymes Diease in my body to run ramped and kill me. But God was with me through all of it and the doctor knew right away that i has lymes diease and treated me right away. I went home and prayed and pleaded with God please oh please don't let me die i will do what ever you want me to... I have two kids to take care of, what's going to happen to them. I will give my whole life to you .. i give my whole being to you my soul my life everything in the name of jesus i pleaded.  Then the Holy Spirit came to me it wasn't till after a couple of days of praying and pleading and asking all the angles and saints to pray for me to God i prayed to Blessed Mary to St. Anthony  to St. Jude to St. Delphina St. Therese to St. Philomina i prayed constantly. And all of the prayer requests on the internet .. there were thousands praying for me. And the Holy Spirit came to me and it was so real so precious and the most holiest and purest of light and warmth that i had ever felt.  And he took everything away from me and i mean everything like i was wiped clean of everything the lymes Diease the hurt and pain from everything bad that had happened to me and the stress. And the Love i felt was so pure i could never discribe it.  And after that had happened to me if found the bible opened up on my bed i can't remember what page it was but it said if i did this one thing for him i would be bless among nations and i would be greatly rewarded. And that's all i knew but... i didn't know what i was suppose to do.. I prayed and asked God ... I don't know what it is please give me a sign or let me know what it is iam suppose to do.  And a week or two went by and that's when my aunt called me up and said to write every thing down.  And after talking to my aunt the Holy spirit told me that there would be great healing in our family and wouldn't have to worry about money for long any more and that I had to write about this not only for our family but to our generation because he wants us back and he misses us and nobody ever comes to church our age any more and have forgotten about him.  I know i have a big job to do now but iam not scared God said that he would be there for me and by my side always. After the Holy Spirit came to me it was like i could see again I knew why i was alive and living and what God wants of me now. And God is so pure and good that's why he sends the Holy Spirit to us when we need help. Because we are so sinful. And God is so GOOD and pure like the purest ever imaginable that we couldn't handle the goodness.  Oh my life has changed totally and very greatful and blessed. After that I couldn't listened to the regular radio stations, the tv and it was like everything that we are so used to being around hurt me and i couldn't take it.  It was so evil and bad i thought i was going nuts like i couldn't handle all the goodness that had happened to me i told God please help me i can't handle this i was crying about everything and scared that all these bad people were going to take me back to the way I used to be and help me to teach me slowly so i can be strong and not scared.   I know now that there is a God that is pure love and he would never ever want anything bad to happened to us and it's the Devil that has a hold on us until we give our lives to God.  And then when you do.  Your whole life will change and your name will be written in the book of life to never ever die and you will be living on earth as you will be in heaven with him for ever and ever.   That is a little bit of what has happened to me and i know it will be scary at first because the devil will try his hardest to keep you from God.  But have faith in God with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding because he will take care of you.  I love all of you and so does God that's why iam alive to tell you the good news that he will be coming back soon to take his choosen ones. And you are them....